I'm thinking again.
Lately I've been thinking. While I was sitting there, trying to write a poem to express my feelings for that day, a thought came to my mind. The hardest part about being me is trying not to be. It's amazing how true that statement is. Never before have I written something that so accurately describes my feelings, my troubles, my life. It's odd that all of my problems can be summed up in one sentence. So, as I sit here flinging myself through my thoughts as Tarzan would through the trees, you're left behind as poor Jane would be. Thus, I will stop myself before getting too far into the jungle. Today, I merely subsist in physicality. I am neither here mentally, nor am I here emotionally. My brain doesn't feel like cooperating with me. I find myself spaced off and lost in thought more often than I find myself embracing reality. You see, I am one of those people who can not think of more than one thing at once. As such, I am left with this pre-schooler taking turns method of thought. Since I have quite a bit to think about, and not a lot of mind to do it with, it has occupied nearly my whole day thus far. Anyhoo, so far today I have cleaned the kitchen, done some laundry, went to a baseball practice, went shopping, and now I'm posting (obviously) and working on my website a bit. My plans for the rest of the evening are to help Trish with candles, watch a movie or two, do some school, and write some poetry. Ta-da... my Saturday. Well, I don't really have much to say. I've told you already, my brain doesn't feel like cooperating. God bless you. Thank-you and goodnight.
1 Comments:
The hardest part about everyone is trying not to be themselves. Look at me of all of my life for instance. I am for who I am, but people wanted me to be someone else that they wanted me to be. Look what happened there. A lot of problems have been caused and I was not happy in my life. After I have realized what I really wanted and ignored what others didnt want, I became really happy. If you think about it, everyone in their lives go on living in a life that is not of their own until they realize the true potential of their feelings and their true ways, and only then can you truely live out your life. It usually sucks when your brain doesn't like to cooperate huh? hehe and im always out of it mentally and emotionally so i cant help you out there:). There is a thing that i always consider....if you have more eggs in a basket than required, then eat some to put more in and say there were not any more eggs:D. Or you can just tell the truth and tell them you ate the eggs. Or get another basket to carry the extra eggs in. The moral of the story....is never carry too many eggs in one basket, for one is likely to break. Now think of those eggs as your thoughts and your feelings. Think about what happens if one of those eggs fall out of the basket? I am sorry for I am rambling. You just need to slow down, and think about things, just like I need to do. I will pray for you, AND JUST TO MAKE YOU HAPPY.............ill even pray for myself....there happy? Well i hope so ......lol but anyways get better Jos!!!
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