Complexity is overrated.

Consider this my sad attempt at a real post.

I'm not sure how to summarize life anymore. I'm not sure if it can really be done, but let's give it a shot!

School- I've been doing fairly well with doing my school lately, but I'll probably have to do quite a bit more before Christmas break is up in order to be completely caught up. That's not too shabby, and I've actually managed not to stress too much over it the last... two days, haha.

Health- Actually, my health seemed to be just fine, with the exception of going without my medicine until last night. I'm afraid I have a bad habbit of falling off of my bed. This habbit has caused quite the crink in my neck. Thankfully, it's not a big deal. I'm just upset that I wasn't able to cheer tonight. I was hoping to go the whole season without missing any meets or tournaments due to health problems. It almost makes me feel as if I've failed something. Oh well. It was kind of nice to watch the wrestlers without worrying about what cheer to do next. That gets a bit distracting when you care more about wrestling, haha.

Self-Control- I've realized lately that I have a serious problem with self-control. I was reading my Bible and noticed that self-control isn't a gift or something you learn. It's something every Christian has access to as soon as they're saved. It's just a matter of choosing to use it or not. I, more often than not, choose not to use it. Most of the time this self-control problem seeps from anger or fear. I've found myself doing things like compulsively scribbling and crying uncontrollably. That isn't me. Thus, it's going to be fixed. I'm going to spend the next week correcting these problems and focusing on expressing my emotions, rather than spazzing out because of them.

My Website- I redesigned my entire website. You should definitely check it out and sign the guestbook. I like it quite a bit now. There are still some other things I'd like to do to it, but for now, it should work just fine.

Christmas- I do love Christmas. I love the happiness and the giving. I think that if my neck is doing better tomorrow, I'm going to go through my room and gather everything I don't need and give it away! Unfortunately, my funds are what some would call limited for Christmas shopping and I am what some would call a procrastinator. I'm a horrible Christmas shopper, especially for the male species. >asdfjkl;< It's okay though. I have a couple of ideas now. I'm just hoping that I have an oppurtunity to go shopping in the next couple of days. Now, enough about the blah blah blah part of Christmas, and on to what matters... I love Christmas because it makes me think of when I was little. I remember making a birthday cake for Jesus with Ashley Carter <3 my best friend<3 when we were probably four feet tall. Sometimes I think I've lost a bit of the fire I used to have when I talk about Jesus. I remember the light I had in my eyes and that skip in my walk... and it wasn't for the candy or the presents, that was just Jesus. No fear, eh? It's coming back. :)

The future- I want a job. I really want to work. I think the plan is that when wrestling season is over, I'll try for a job at Casey's. If I could get a job there, it would work about perfectly. As long as I can figure a way to balance out my school, everything should be okay.

By the way, my post didn't really have anything to do with my title; however, that doesn't make it any less true.

Well, there's your real post. Ta-da!
Goodnight then... <3

P.S. -- I forgot to link my website earlier, so in case you've forgotten it's ...
http://geocities.com/shinethroughthedarkness