Let's partake in a bit of happy chaos!

Let me start by saying that I will not be publishing any more of my story in this particular post. I will, however, try to publish some more on it later tonight in another post. As far as life goes, I'm back in Branson. It's pleasant. I've truly missed it. Let's see if I can recap the last few days. Saturday was overcome by some sort of miserable chaos. I'm sorry to say that my emotional strength totally broke down that day, and I cried an awful lot. Contrary to popular belief in Hollywood, when the rain came, the drama subsided. The most "beautiful" part of the day was filled with fighting and tensity. As soon as the storm came, things got a little brighter somehow. My mood was finally made happy when a tornado warning was proclaimed for my town. I do so love the way God's natural chaos can take away our own. That was Saturday. Yesterday was chaotic in a less obvious way. I doubt that many others noticed, but I was very moved by the sermon my pastor delivered. It hit a soft spot. The part that got me was when he said, "Sometimes we grow to love the obstacles that keep us from growing." Wow, if that doesn't define my life, then I don't know what does. I'm sure each of you who read this will think of an individual sin that I could've grown to love, but it's different than that. It's not the obvious... it's deeper. My soul was overwhelmed by the statement. You see, I used to be a fantastic person. I was a contributor to the lives of my friends, my family, and society as a whole. I lived my life to help others. I made it a priority to always have a smile on my face, in hopes of brightening someone else's day. Recently, I've stopped this. I help people on occasion, when it's convenient for me. I smile when I feel like it. I've spent so much time lately trying to be genuine. I've completely forgotten that I get to decide whether or not I am happy. I don't have to fake happiness. I can just be happy. All I have to do is make my mind up to do so. I can't believe I let something so simple, yet so important, slip away from me. I've been far too busy dealing with my own problems to realize that what I really needed to fix is the way I think of others. I've become so selfish that I'd totally spaced on the needs of others and my need to help them. I finally know my purpose. I know what I'm supposed to do. God put me here to help people. And that's exactly what I plan to do. The things that I've been doing wrong are just results of what I'm not doing right. I know how to fix it. All I have to do is start putting others before. I've preached it before, but I finally get it now. So, thanks Pastor Jeff! You really helped me out there. See what I mean about a less obvious chaos? It was more chaos of the mind and soul. I arrived in Branson Sunday night and got settled in. I've been helping out with anything I can at the office today, and it's definitely cheering me up. I am prioritizing how to help others without neglecting my responsibilities (schoolwork). About time, eh? I haven't had any treatment today, but I will soon. They're trying to get the physical therapist to work with me so get strength back up to snuff in my right side. That's about all that's new. I will ask a favor of all of you. If any of you catch me feeling sorry for myself, or even feeling sad... just remind me of what I've just shared with you. I need that every once in a while. I leave you all with a huge smile from Joselynn. I hope that it can brighten your day just a little. You know that little skip in my walk? Guess what, folks! It's back. :-D God bless each of you. I pray that God touches you the way he has me. Dwell in happiness! Love, peace, and all that jazz!