There seems to be no way out, but there is one when in doubt.

I was seriously considering posting about how miserable my life has been lately. I was thinking about going on about how I am so tired that I can hardly stand it. Then it dawned on me that I am being entirely selfish. So what if my life can be a bit trying? That doesn't justify my complaining. I don't have much energy, but the energy I do have should be used a lot better. And to tell you the truth, I'm not doing so badly. Things could be going a whole lot worse for me. My reaction to the smallest of burdens in my life tend to be planting my feet firmly to where I'm strattling apathy and anxiety. I have no idea where my optimism has been hiding lately. Perhaps it was in the closet buried with all of the shoes I've never worn. That would explain why it's taken me so long to find it. Now I have it, and I'm going to do my darnedest to keep hold of it. When I wake up each morning from a dreadful and horrific sleep, I should get down on my knees and thank God for granting me the ability to wake up rather than asking why He's putting me through this. What right do I have to question God? He will fix me up whenever he pleases, and in the meantime I can be keeping a smile on my face and helping where I can. Just because I have one problem doesn't mean I should shrug off everyone else's. I ought to be rejoicing in life despite my trials. It really does bother me that I can't go one week without a problem, but maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. Maybe I need to figure out a way to take joy in times of sorrow or confusion. So, I'm sorry that I can be psycho sometimes... particularly when I'm sleeping. But do you know what? It's not a biggy. It's something that I'll continue trying to fix, and that I'd still like some prayer for, mostly for a lack of energy. But I don't need to be whining about it all of the time. And I don't need to be letting it affect my attitude toward life. Life is happy... :)

I don't know what ever made me think otherwise.

God bless you all. Fare thee well...

P.S.-- At least I'm not Amish. >.<