Who I am hates who I've been...

Hello everyone. I'm sorry I haven't posted in such a long time.
Life's been hectic, but that's no excuse because my life is
always hectic. I'm starting to straighten things out... Well, I
guess I'm finishing straightening things out. I'm still in Iowa.
I'll be heading back down to Branson on Sunday. Anyhoo,
I'll be moving my story from here to mywebsite. I figure it will
be easier to access there. My site address is
http://www.geocities.com/aggressiveballerina
I don't have a whole lot of news to share. My health is improving,
but I've recently been facing a problem of coughing up blood
frequently, which bites. I suppose it will heal soon. I sure hope
so. Today, I ate some orange sherbert. Orange sherbert rocks.
Other than that, I don't have a whole lot to tell. I have a strong
feeling that will be changing soon, however. I'm at a crossroads
in my life, and there's a Denny's on one corner and an IHOP on
the other... crazy stuff. Here's a good way of explaining myself.
Relient K hits it right on the spot with this song. Here goes...


I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I’m losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest
 state it’s ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It’s the very moment that I wish
that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long
for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become
that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talked to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
had finally begun
To create so much pressure that
 I'd soon blow up

And I heard the reverberating
footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of
 my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart

And I can’t let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart
 in the saddest state it’s ever been
And this is no place to try and
live my life

Who I am hates who I’ve been
And who I am will take the second
 chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I’ve been
Cause who I’ve been only ever made me



Yepp, that covers it. I send you all my love!
God bless and fare thee well.